it's about 4 plus in the morn.. but why am i still here blogging? haha... gd qn... =) im too lazy to think of an ans also... so... =)
anyway... i think grandpa's gonna bring me to get a new camera tmr! =) haha... than i can hv more pics posted on my blog!!! =D and more memories... can't wait... =P
u can say... i've been kinda down today... like... go arnd the house.. nt knowing what im thinking... what im doing... like u just do what ur mind tells u to do at that specific time... -.- like part of ur mind is numb and all... maybe is that i hvnt much recovered from what happened... but... im sure all will get better... but for now... i just do feel... numb... or maybe lacking towards smt? or maybe it's just a like monday blues or smt... haha....
all i knw now is that.. i can no longer wry anyone about what happens in my life... i hv to learn to cope with it... =) and... i AM trying to love myself more... =) no one likes a person who doesnt love themselves... so im learning... hard =)
Labels: no longer know whether to smile or cry
世界忽然变形忽然很安静
无助的我一秒间失去重心
听你不停为我担心
看你不停离我而去
你要我照顾自己
是我做了什么让天使生气
还是忘了做什么让幸福远离
也许该要真的相信
有种爱叫远远关心
痛却又哽住呼吸
我用狂奔用无力用恶梦去想你
我讨厌命运骄傲的神情
嘲笑我没半点权利决定
我用痛哭用回忆用深爱去想你
去体会什么是迫不得已
越懂才越有勇气
诚实地想你
是不是担心我怕黑不敢前进
那颗本来没坠落的流星
才拼命烧亮了自己
我用狂奔用无力用恶梦去想你
我讨厌命运骄傲的神情
嘲笑我没半点权利决定
我用痛哭用回忆用深爱去想你
去体会什么是迫不得已
越懂才越有勇气
诚实地想你
this lyrics are sorta how my mood is now... =) i guess... sometimes, u really cant show ur emotion and u can really explain how u feel... i love using music to help me talk.. =) that's y i love music sooo much =D haha.. it's just amazing how helps u express urself...
songs.. can just change my mood... or help me express how i feel... thus, without it.. i really think i'll be nothing.. totally empty...
i hope it goes on this way.. for music to play an impt part in my life... i hope one day.. it'll be the other way round too.. if u get what i mean =)
Labels: no longer know whether to smile or cry