Saturday 31 January 2009
pretences...
so many going on in this world... so many secrets... so many fakers... but who's to blame? we all have a little faker in us... some bigger than the other... but all these... how does it fit into one person?
so many things going through my mind now... rushing through my brain... piercing into the heart... what's wrong? or rather... is what im doing right?...
--stay strong... cos... i'm still living a good life.
so many things going through my mind now... rushing through my brain... piercing into the heart... what's wrong? or rather... is what im doing right?...
--stay strong... cos... i'm still living a good life.
[roses] are nice. so are you {00:43}
Wednesday 28 January 2009
Happy Lunar New Year
ok... so it's alr the 3rd day on the lunar calendar.. but... HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR ALL!!! haha... =) anyway... collected quite alot of ang pows this yr... =) so... means... $$$ save up... =D yeah... hm...
anyway.. hoped everyone had a great new year visiting relatives u only see that ONE TIME in every year.. =D haha...
alright... so have some pics to share over the new year when i went visiting... and what's special abt what i wore this year..hm... let's just say hardly ANYBODY ever sees me in... well.. actually i've NEVER wore anything like that.. and... I DIDN'T BUY IT! haha... my babe jezz bought it for me for christmas (which i was SUPPOSED to wear for her arnd that period.. but it dragged lol...) AND that also explains why the dress is SOOOO NOT BEVERLY-ish... haha... =D ok... once again... happy cny all! =D
pics...
anyway.. hoped everyone had a great new year visiting relatives u only see that ONE TIME in every year.. =D haha...
alright... so have some pics to share over the new year when i went visiting... and what's special abt what i wore this year..hm... let's just say hardly ANYBODY ever sees me in... well.. actually i've NEVER wore anything like that.. and... I DIDN'T BUY IT! haha... my babe jezz bought it for me for christmas (which i was SUPPOSED to wear for her arnd that period.. but it dragged lol...) AND that also explains why the dress is SOOOO NOT BEVERLY-ish... haha... =D ok... once again... happy cny all! =D
pics...
LOVE MY GRANDPA TO THE CORE!!! =D
on dad's car... on the way to visit...
yup... what i ACTUALLY wore.
[roses] are nice. so are you {20:53}
Sunday 25 January 2009
After exams... HOLIDAYS!
ok... i know there's still gonna be a few weeks till my holidays officially start... but still... sooo looking forward!!! ok... so after cny.. it's gonna be mugging for the 6 PAPERS!!! arh!!! but what's after 13feb 11am.... WHOO~HOO~~~ hahah... =)
ok.. holidays... what's up on my calendar?
1) Saving up for Taiwan trip
2) Train for Max Party & KO Night with Jasmine dear... =)
3) Find a job??? ( dunno if necessary yet )
4) Spend time with close and personal friends.. FINALLY
5) choreo?? hm... =)
ok... doesnt mean i'll follow up to it ppl.. but.. that's just abt the gist of things =D hahaha... yup...
exams ah exams... can you pls be over soon? sigh...
ok.. holidays... what's up on my calendar?
1) Saving up for Taiwan trip
2) Train for Max Party & KO Night with Jasmine dear... =)
3) Find a job??? ( dunno if necessary yet )
4) Spend time with close and personal friends.. FINALLY
5) choreo?? hm... =)
ok... doesnt mean i'll follow up to it ppl.. but.. that's just abt the gist of things =D hahaha... yup...
exams ah exams... can you pls be over soon? sigh...
[roses] are nice. so are you {02:05}
Wednesday 21 January 2009
consciousness vs unconsciousness
we think that when we sleep, it's really the best to forget things and when we wake up the next day, all gets better... i beg to differ...
nights have been haunting.. so quiet, but no peace... eyes closed but mind awake. i have no idea why but it's when im aslep that im the most conscious of things. and it's only when im awake that i can gather the strength to fight it. it's not being awake that im afraid of anymore but when im asleep. asleep is when my guard is down and all attacks where it hurts most.
so night after night... i close my eyes... and hope the day arrives fast. so that my guard wont be down for too long... i hope to wake up smiling again... cos i miss those days =)
Labels: looking forward to smiles again
[roses] are nice. so are you {21:52}
Saturday 17 January 2009
FOREIGN BODIES AT NYP OPEN HOUSE 2009
long time nv post pictures... so... =) here it is! =)
credits to idah for putting up the photos =)
credits to idah for putting up the photos =)
[roses] are nice. so are you {23:10}
Wednesday 14 January 2009
beware.. bev-malfunction
ahh!!! exam timetable's out... im DOOMED.. one paper after another... i gotta really buck up man... it feels like im in fragile mental state now... nobody in class is behaving right.. haha.. all going kinda cackoo and bonkers... -.-
but can't blame us... projects flooding us.. breathing down our necks... cos we nv seem to be able to excel in projects.. i dunno why.. ok... for ME... it's kinda like that... and weightage of projs are high! i mean.. i really try my best for all projs... and push myself... like when i do.. i REALLY DO... haha... but now.. slowly one proj by one proj is due... and the exams are nearing...
i dunno abt the rest.. but feels like dooms-day and independence day combined all tgt.. once after my papers... is like freedom (till next sem starts of cos)... haha.. but it also means... more time to do what I want... haha...
maybe some ppl dun really is my disintegration... but at the end of the day... i still gotta pull it tgt and get things done! yeah... -.- hm... so what to do? full-speed ahead!
but can't blame us... projects flooding us.. breathing down our necks... cos we nv seem to be able to excel in projects.. i dunno why.. ok... for ME... it's kinda like that... and weightage of projs are high! i mean.. i really try my best for all projs... and push myself... like when i do.. i REALLY DO... haha... but now.. slowly one proj by one proj is due... and the exams are nearing...
i dunno abt the rest.. but feels like dooms-day and independence day combined all tgt.. once after my papers... is like freedom (till next sem starts of cos)... haha.. but it also means... more time to do what I want... haha...
maybe some ppl dun really is my disintegration... but at the end of the day... i still gotta pull it tgt and get things done! yeah... -.- hm... so what to do? full-speed ahead!
[roses] are nice. so are you {00:54}
Saturday 10 January 2009
busy time over???
NYP Open House 09 has officially ended... i guess it feels.. kinda weird... probably cos it's the last real thing we'll be handling as seniors... haha... soon... im gonna be a grandsenior! omg!!! haha... =)
anyway.. good job all! all the hard work paid off... all my stressing... hopefully wasnt for nothing.. and sorry for being so fierce during these few days... i've been scolding and been very direct... and hope to seek understanding.. not forgiveness lah.. UNDERSTANDING.. haha... i mean... i meant well when i scolded... ok.. MAYBE partially cos i was pissed and frustrated too.. and for THAT... i seek forgiveness... hahaha...
but... since all of that is over.. now it's concentrating on KO Night... and the juniors... since danceworks is coming up.. AND... any bits and piece of performance we take up... =) other than that... must really chiong for studies alr.. it's like my gpa... sigh.. think i shldn't say anymore.. haha... i wanna do better for my grades... AND i wanna work harder.. so that i dun need to DIE during my IPP just to make up for the loss... but i STILL wanna do gd for ipp lah... cos it sounds interesting.. haha.. =P
yeah... so... let's all work hard peeps for the rest of the semester! =)
anyway.. good job all! all the hard work paid off... all my stressing... hopefully wasnt for nothing.. and sorry for being so fierce during these few days... i've been scolding and been very direct... and hope to seek understanding.. not forgiveness lah.. UNDERSTANDING.. haha... i mean... i meant well when i scolded... ok.. MAYBE partially cos i was pissed and frustrated too.. and for THAT... i seek forgiveness... hahaha...
but... since all of that is over.. now it's concentrating on KO Night... and the juniors... since danceworks is coming up.. AND... any bits and piece of performance we take up... =) other than that... must really chiong for studies alr.. it's like my gpa... sigh.. think i shldn't say anymore.. haha... i wanna do better for my grades... AND i wanna work harder.. so that i dun need to DIE during my IPP just to make up for the loss... but i STILL wanna do gd for ipp lah... cos it sounds interesting.. haha.. =P
yeah... so... let's all work hard peeps for the rest of the semester! =)
[roses] are nice. so are you {23:42}
Thursday 8 January 2009
NYP Open House 09
it's like nt long ago.. i was the one who had to just listen to orders... just do what i was told.. and perform =) now... it's already 2009 ppl!!! and 3 consecutive days of performances... run by... ourselves... hm... realy feels different...
anyway... hope all turns out well..! let all ur hard work pay off ppl! =)
support fb in their open house performances on the 8, 9, 10 Jan at NYP's Atrium... timings are as follow:
8/1 Thurs -- 1220; 1645
9/1 Fri -- 1205; 1830
10/1 Sat -- 1205; 1645
=) =) =) do come down to give us ur support!!! =D and let's do this fb! =)
anyway... hope all turns out well..! let all ur hard work pay off ppl! =)
support fb in their open house performances on the 8, 9, 10 Jan at NYP's Atrium... timings are as follow:
8/1 Thurs -- 1220; 1645
9/1 Fri -- 1205; 1830
10/1 Sat -- 1205; 1645
=) =) =) do come down to give us ur support!!! =D and let's do this fb! =)
[roses] are nice. so are you {01:39}
Saturday 3 January 2009
Chris Brown - Say Goodbye
Baby come here and sit down, let's talk
I got a lot to say so I guess I'll start by
Saying that I love you,
But you know, this thing ain't been
No walk in the park for us
I swear it'll only take a minute
You'll understand when I finish
And I don't wanna see you cry
But I don't wanna be the one to tell you a lie so
How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Everything I tried to remember to say
Just went out my head
So I'ma do the best I can to get you to understand
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
'Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I gotta gotta figure out what I need
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye
But now your heart is breaking
And a thousand times I
Found myself asking, "Why? Why?"
Why am I taking so long to say this?
But trust me, girl I never
Meant to crush your world
And I never
Though I would see the day we grew apart
And I wanna know
How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Girl I hope you understand
What I'm tryna say.
We just can't go on
Pretending that we get along
Girl how you not gonna see it?
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
'Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I gotta gotta figure out what I need
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye
Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I just can't do it
I, I just can't do it
Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I just can't do it
And sometimes it makes me wanna cry
Do you hear me crying? (There's never a right time...)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
'Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I gotta gotta figure out what I need
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye
I got a lot to say so I guess I'll start by
Saying that I love you,
But you know, this thing ain't been
No walk in the park for us
I swear it'll only take a minute
You'll understand when I finish
And I don't wanna see you cry
But I don't wanna be the one to tell you a lie so
How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Everything I tried to remember to say
Just went out my head
So I'ma do the best I can to get you to understand
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
'Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I gotta gotta figure out what I need
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye
But now your heart is breaking
And a thousand times I
Found myself asking, "Why? Why?"
Why am I taking so long to say this?
But trust me, girl I never
Meant to crush your world
And I never
Though I would see the day we grew apart
And I wanna know
How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Girl I hope you understand
What I'm tryna say.
We just can't go on
Pretending that we get along
Girl how you not gonna see it?
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
'Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I gotta gotta figure out what I need
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye
Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I just can't do it
I, I just can't do it
Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I just can't do it
And sometimes it makes me wanna cry
Do you hear me crying? (There's never a right time...)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
'Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I gotta gotta figure out what I need
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye
Labels: looking forward to smiles again, music soothes my soul
[roses] are nice. so are you {16:18}
Thursday 1 January 2009
Welcome... "2009"!
ok... so everybody's all about the "So HOW are YOU going to spend your last few minutes of the year 2008?!" blah blah blah... sweet... but ya whatever... too bad bev's home... sick... coughing germs out like nobody's business... so here i am.. in my room.. BLOGGING about new year instead of being out with friends... but ok... i mean.. it's ONLY new year... RIGHT? happens... only... like once a year? ya whatever...anyway... still.. HAPPY & BLESSED NEW YEAR to one and all... especially those who matter in my life... thanks for being there for me for the past year in 2008... and look forward to more cares and concerns vice versa in 2009 =)
but other than that... yupp... i'm kinda numb to the who festive season thing with all the fireworks... which i'll be looking at from my 25th-storey view... =) yup... and i'll be watching TAIWAN'S countdown instead of Singapore's as usual... haha.. (not that i dun like my country.. i just dun like its programs =) well... most of them anyway)
now... all i gotta do.. is faster get better by morning... and think of what i can do... i mean... i really dun wanna sit at home on new year... YET! going out will be so tedious... why? crowds! it's a definite no-no... so... hmm... i'll figure smt out =)
aite! enjoy and chill to welcome one more FASCINATING year! =) peace~
[roses] are nice. so are you {00:00}
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