this feeling... it's like neither being ecstatic nor is it like depressing... i also can't find words to describe. it's not the average everyday bev.. yet... it's like in between wanting to be happy yet gonna be sad... such a struggling feeling... yet i can't get out of it...

what is it? why is it so?
no explanation... no way to figure things out... no solutions.

such an irony
feeling warm, yet so cold
so sweet, yet bitter
determined, yet tired to hang on

why is it that we're just made like this? probably i'll find where i belong soon.. and maybe 'here', it's not where im supposed to be.. im not meant to be 'here'... and things will work out soon.. =) soon...such a convincing yet scary word =D

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
梦想中 属於我们的婚礼
却成了 单人结婚进行曲
在这场爱情角力的拔河里
爱我还是爱你
你选择了自己

撒娇的 可爱的
迷人的 爱哭的
照片里 曾经的 都是你喜欢的
如今我还在原地
你却走回你的记忆

你说我爱你太多 就快要把你淹没
你害怕幸福 短暂一秒就崩落
分开是一种解脱 让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空 你是不是能够给我

你说我给你太多 却不能给我什麽
分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口 我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最後温柔 是因为我太爱你

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
梦想中 属於我们的婚礼
安静了 在我枕边的梦里
我知道相爱原本就不容易
爱不是一场雨
努力就有结局
连假的泪还温热
却没有人握我的手

你说我爱你太多 就快要把你淹没
你害怕幸福 短暂一秒就崩落
分开是一种解脱 让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空 你是不是能够给我

你说我给你太多 却不能给我什麽
分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口 我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最後温柔 是因为我太爱你


作词:Selina(任家萱)
作曲:周杰伦 编曲:吕绍淳
专辑:我的电台 FM S.H.E

Labels: meaning of 'love', music soothes my soul

i've learnt something out of all this i've been through. probably it's just a general thing...

sometimes.. no matter how hard we try sometimes, we can't always get the results we want.. and for some things... it's not about how much effort u put in... but it's just how it is. tough... but just so. =)

life's really not a bed of roses i guess... when we think we can start resting... it's like everything all happens again... and when u start getting numb to ur surrounding... what hits u next is something even worse... smt like the calm before the storm... no doubt, it SUCKS big time... but... TOUGH!

i wanna keep so many things to myself... but than again... how can i be so selfish? we all want so many things in life... that we forget that we're not alone.. the world doesnt revolve arnd just us.. what we do affects one another...

so how can i freeze time? make this moment stay? it's not possible. it never was...

Hey all readers!!! The long awaited very first Foreign Bodies Production: School of Groove-Get Educated! i often mention on my blog is coming soon!!! tickets are ready for purchasing/ordering!!! yeah!!!

Details of the Production are as follows:
Date - 12 & 13 Dec '08 Fri & Sat
Time - 7:30pm [Duration: 1½ hr]
Venue - NYP Auditorium
Cost of tic - $10
Free Seating

There'll be a Production Roadshow this coming Thurs & Fri (20 & 21 Nov '08) at NYP's Mac Canteen from 11am-5pm! u can get ur tickets there at these timings... there'll be performances going on at 12nn, 2:30pm and 4:30pm also.. DON'T MISS IT!!!

If there's more u wanna find out about the production... pls check out the FB Production blog!
http://fbproduction.wordpress.com

Get ur tickets before it's sold out!!!

Additional info: There's a FB Lunchtime performance at 1:40pm at NYP's atrium. Pls do go down and support us!!! cya there!!!

whoa... unbelieveable experience yo!!! haha... and battling my very first!!! haha... WHOOO~~~ hm... thx to everybody who cheered for us... and came down to support us! haha.... and i felt everyone really did a great job... whether on or off form... u all did great! haha

hm... getting into the top 4... was DEFINITELY not something i expected man!!! i mean.. battle once i happy alr.. even if lose... but... wow.. i'm so grateful that we got thru... but the battle with an & hei... WHOO!!! so honoured to get to battle with the dope ppl... haha... and glad to hv a dope partner too!!! omg!!! haha... =)

well... this is just a beginning i guess.. i mean... it's not abt winning or losing i guess... it's abt gg out there and showing ur best... haha... =)

im just contented i guess... nothing much to complain... other than upcoming tests this tues and fri! urgh! haha... ok then... guess that's all the updates i hv now... hm... [sry can't actually announce who won cos i left early cos of my bloody headache -.- but congrats to ALL winners yo!]

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it's when u have things that are almost perfect and u become so used to it that u dunno how it'll be when u lose them. and it's also the things that matter most to u that u're afraid to lose the most.

i admit... i fear... every single day... the dwelling, the haunting. but yet it makes me wanna just grab every moment i can now when i can. but the feeling... is like it's nv enough... i may be greedy... like some may say: '人总是得寸进尺' (translated meaning: when one gets his way, he'll wanna get further than what he's given) it feels this way...

maybe cos... things are gg too well... and a lil too good? is there such a thing? but it makes one wanna just grab on tight and nv let go... but... time won't ever stop, things change, ppl move on... than what happens then? guess only when it happens, then we'll know...

attended quite a no. of 21st birthdays this yr... hm... probably cos got really close with frens frm fb... cos it' really smt i nv experience much before...

and... i attended 3 bdays of the really most dope ppl i know!!! Rachel, Nic Sim & Jezz of cos! haha... all are really different kinds of celebration and both were really cool in their own ways... =)

my thoughts on all the 21st bdays? well... 21 is really the time where one would really feel like the adulthood is coming. and responsibility comes in more and everyone has to start carrying the weight of the world... so, making one's 21st special, is really impt... hm... like it marks the last day that one would really still live in an age of being naive and unaware of one's surroundings... take it... as a form of escapism... probably 21 is when one has no choice but to face the tough future and stop hiding?

BUT... im like still 3 yrs away from my 21st... and ... maybe i shld like start saving up now so i can do smt extravagant... LOL... =P hope by my 21st.. the friends i have will still be there and not like what happened.. before... hm... =) and impt friends of mine... their 21st will come up too.. so that's a plus part for me to save up for... haha... cos i want all my friends to hv memorable 21STs... =)

man! everyone's getting old.... =( haha... but at least we're getting old... TOGETHER! MUAHAHA

all things will come to a point where u dunno how to handle them... breathing down ur neck... and also just making ur mood waver... but all u need... is to take time... =)

all will be better...
all will work out...

i know so...
i have to make sure so...

just be patient... take some time... one at a time...

Labels: beyond bev's control

bev has gotta plan out her time properly man!!! so many things happening... and so little time to handle them all... gosh... whether is it for myself... or is it for others... i gotta start putting in my 110%!!! i mean.. i've been neglecting some of my own stuff for others lately... sry to all those that i've affected... i'm really trying my best to balance out things... i'll get back on my feet... soon... i just really gotta settle some things one at a time...

think life's just like that at times... just hectic... no reason... things just pile up... and there's no force that can keep it away... it just keeps coming... more and more... not gonna wait for u to catch ur breath... but all u can do... is to keep the pace up... in a way... train my mental stamina!!! =)

hm... let's just hope i keep going and dun get a 'mental panic attack'... =)

Labels: time. my bestest friend; biggest enemy

some pictures taken at rachie's 21st birthday celebration... and may i say.... GRAND MUCH?!!!! haha... got games... got host... got dance! and most importantly... got FOOD!!! (9 course meal no less!) whoa... i gotta start saving up for MY 21st man!!! =S haha...