in life.. there are like SOO MANY perhaps... ifs... etc. but some of them, can be turned into reality.. some can only remain as a thought. nv brought to reality...

in my previous post, there is the lyrics to a chinese song that speaks of how i feel lately... there is a line that i think really jumped out.. and means alot.. to me... "有种爱叫远远关心". i guess it's ok for it to be this way too... it's better than nothing i guess... but, that doesnt mean it's worst off... this can still be a way of loving, caring and the best way for everyone...

another line that i think impacts and reflects me a lot is "我讨厌命运骄傲的神情, 嘲笑我没半点权利决定". some times, things just happen and although u hate it that u hv no control, u fall deep into the trap still... it's weird. it nv makes sense. but isnt that just how we like it too.. guess the world would be boring if we KNEW everything and to us, everything was predictable and make sense... lol... the irony...

but.... this doesnt mean i shouldn't look forward to each day... (u thought me that =) ) so... i'll still carry on with what i hv to do. live up to expectation. and not be brought down by what im troubled with... =) after all... 远远关心就够了... as long as i can care for u, distance wont be a concern, i'm happy with that... one day, i hope to be able to let it go. but till then, i want the best... not just for me... for everyone...