i think i gotta face things more strongly... i hate the weak me... haha... i must get prepared for worse things than how i feel now... haha... so... no use dragging myself to the pit.. guess i've woke up... can't live in this misery..

but i still think it's ok to cry.. but... after that, think i gotta get outta self-pity... a stronger and braver me gotta take charge.. =) ya... my feelings may waver.. moods may swing... so the strong side has to hold on =)

there are so many more things out there i gotta worry and think about alr.. dance, singing, and my mother whom i've not seen in AGES... i think i gotta come to a time where i GROW UP and like stop avoiding her... i may not hv to care for her but i still am daughter...guess it's only her rights to be able to see me once in a long while... i always thought i was mature.. but i realise how stubborn and childish i've been with her... -.- i think i really dun hv to like her for what she's done.. or not done.. but, it's time to stop avoiding it. turning 18 soon knw bev! =)

of cos the pain won't go away so fast.. i'm not superman or anything... but.. i'll cope with it.. i hate worrying ppl i love and care about just cos of this too... so... maybe i shld be strong enough to tackle this matter on my own... maybe it'll just resolve on it's own.. heh heh... =D wishful thinking.. but it MIGHT happen.. lol...

although i already hv a strong outer exterior.. as in i dun easily break down in front of ppl... i think it's time that i build a strong innerself. yupp... i need nt necessarily give up... or make myself more worried... but i'm sure i'll find a way. =)

get ready bev... =)

李玖哲 sang this 快点来爱我 in a show with JJ Lin 原来我不帅... love his voice! makes ppl melt.. haha... his new album is good! yeah... <想太多> nice!