i know i can keep myself busy while dancing and thinking about club crawl and all... but it seems like there will still be times where i'll be
totally alone... and in that time...
things just run through my mind...
things that make me wanna cry..
things that make me feel i'm getting emptier inside.
i know i should be like getting over it... that i should be stronger... but it's really SO hard to be strong when u're all by urself. than i'll be just thinking about what ELSE i can think of... but the deeper i look...feels more empty... no idea why either...
found ways i can drown myself from the confused state i'm in.. but those ways only last for a short time.. than later.. when i'm in my room, it all comes back again...
do i matter?am i existent?can i do without it?am i brave enough to hold on?can u see me?hoping that all these will just clear away like the clouds blocking the sun from glowing.
hoping that all these would turn into tears. once shed, i'll be fine again.
hoping that i will wake up, knowing how i feel isn't real.