it seems like things are more and more out of reach...
the hole, seems to hv grown deeper... wider....
i can't say that i'm sad about it...but yet im not glad either...
but... it feels... empty...numb... nt that that is a bad thing...

i guess i've just got mixed up feeling right now...
why r u making me feel this way? why?

i realised that we ask whys everyday in our lives...
but so what if we hv all the answers?
what then? truthfully, I wouldn't knw what to do if i had the answers.

gosh...
now.. still like stuck in the midst of my exams and here i am.. doing stupid things.
like thinking about stuff i'm NOT supposed to...
and i knw she's having a hard time too.

i really wanna protect her... i dun want her to bare anymore hurt.
seeing her hurt, sad, in pain is like hving someone reaching for my heart and squeezing it.
and on top of that... i actually do hv my own worries..
but thk gdness my worries cause numbness instead of pain.
so i'll feel the pain when she feels it...
that's y, i want her to be happy... always

i'll always be here for u... i assure u...
i knw u'll nv leave me... maybe, one day u'll find the right person.
but u'll always be part of my life. and i'm in urs... =)
till then
i just wanna protect u. so much...
i just want us, to hv each other.and be happy with that. may it be for now only.
i want for us, to always say 'hello's and nv 'goodbye's...

i admit... that im selfish... =)
i want u...
and i want so much for u...
and so much for us...
am i too greedy?
how much can a person hv?
no matter how much it is... i hope that it's for the better of us.
i love u