I don't even choose who I am... What makes you think YOU can?

Franchise =P

2010-07-24T01:34:00.001+08:00

Hey fellow blog readers...

Beverly has decided to open a Tumblr account!! haha...

So I'll be like updated short posts there instead... Well, long stories i'll still blog HERE but i realized i'm more of a 'short' story person... =P So, if u're interested to know what's going on... follow me there!

http://bevs-got-it.tumblr.com/

click it! u know u wanna! hahaha....
follow me there!!! =D

ciaos bloggers!!!
hopefully i'll be back here soon =P

Gotta learn

2010-07-22T01:52:00.002+08:00

Uh-huh... Like my post title says it, i gotta learn how to calm down more -.- and know how and what to say -.- yikes... but i just sometimes feel SO overwhelmed with emotions... and these days, it's agitation! -.-

Gawd! Why do some people always have to make things so darn difficult!??? Anyway... any one have nice apps on iPhone to intro? I'm like so wasted in trying to find new apps... lol.. i just feel like finding smt entertaining... lol...

hm... other than that... i really hope baby's enlistment doesn't come too soon =( but it will -.- sigh... so just gotta learn (again) how to handle myself without depending too much on him...

Aite... that's about all i have til now... lol.. I really dunno what else to blog..

Oh ya... JIAYOU MONDAY HIPPIES!!! haha... =)

out-

Baby's going NS!

2010-07-14T00:22:00.002+08:00

Baby will be enlisting on August 3rd!

So... My ultimate goal now is to spend AS MUCH TIME AS I CAN WITH HIM AS POSSIBLE NOW! Lol... I know that's selfish of me... But, I'll definitely miss him loads when he goes in. Moreover, I'm SUPER dependent on him! Imagine I can't see him for more than 2 weeks! The LONGEST I can TAHAN without him is 2 weeks... That's my tolerance level... So... pray hard he'll text me frequently inside =P

Another thing... The Big Groove that just passed recently... Well... WCO was DOPE as usual.. There was some unexpected things from O Crew (Rachel n David hint hint haha) lol... And Quest Crew was just... SICK lah... no other words to describe. HAHA... Just like, dope lor.

So this is to my DEAREST BOYFRIEND! hahaha...

@ TBG '10

I'm Lovin' Him!

Love You!!!

Why is this so?

2010-07-07T00:56:00.002+08:00

How can some have so much lack in a sense of urgency? How can one be reminded and scolded so many times but yet relentless of the mistakes repeated? How can someone resort to such a not foolproof and immature way of handling a situation faced?

Right now, I have no idea where to start from. Is it really to the point of no return? I hope not! I hope to see more coming out. I mean, I don't see that it was SO difficult in the past. Than why only now? Can someone tell me? It's getting rather ridiculous I have to say. But whatever. Just CORRECT it!

I can't be telling you what to do all the time. I gotta let go... Actually, I have already let go! -.- So pls just make things better. Learn how to grow from the mistakes instead of just creating more...

--worried. frustrated. brink of giving up.

LUIGI

2010-07-03T17:52:00.002+08:00

Hi people! Haha... So, you know those machines at arcades? With 'The Claw'? haha... ok, dear took $1 coin from me and on his first try... he won a LUIGI h/p holder thingy!!! haha... =D of cos he gave it to me... sweetie... =D

Bet u can spot where's Luigi! haha...

Haha.. up front, in-ur-face!

Yup... he's cute! i know right

happy that i got smt from dear... although cost only $1... hahaha

On behalf of Luigi and me... PEACE OUT!

Trying

2010-07-01T00:59:00.002+08:00

Alright... I realize too that I've not been updating regularly.. but I will try to from now on ok? I'll like write up random stuff and learn how to take more pics in my daily life... HAHA...

Anyway, won't be sharing much today but The Karate Kid and Toy Story 3 is DOPE!!! OMG... I love both movies to the core... =D wahhaha...

Alright... will try to update again soon! Adios amigos for now...

Trapped

2010-06-24T20:40:00.000+08:00

Alright... I'm back for more updates. First of all, birthday, BEST EVER!!! haha... Spend great quality time with dear dear, and had loads of fun with the Codies~~ haha...(ya that's what i call ya'll)

Other than that, now im back at my grandparents place. Can't say i'm enjoying it cos there's an awful lack of privacy. Yup!! And recently suffering from insomnia again. Well, for what reason, i think i know but i'm not sure that's the actual reason... Hm.

Peace
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Happy Day!

2010-06-09T16:12:00.003+08:00

CONGRATULATIONS to Mr. Teo Jia Rui!!!

He passed his TP!!! =D Yay!!! =D

My loving little bf... =D

Happy day for me today... why?? 'Cause after the long stressing week baby went through, and many un-assured attempts, he finally made it..
My prayers were answered to bless him and protect him for the test he had to take today... =D

Now he can go NS without a worry... =D hahaha... XP

And... Tmr is a very special day!!! Good times going to be spent with boyfriend, and good friends... (RAW STREET CODE girls and gang XD) whoo~~~ we're gonna have Raving madness the whole night and going to go crazy and have fun!!! =D uh-huh...

CAN'T WAIT CAN'T WAIT CAN'T WAIT!!!

Guess this time's bday is bigger cos it's like my 20th? my FIRST 2-head??? haha... =S and i would hate to be turning 21 next yr.. but let's face it... i'm GOING TO... -.- but with baby in NS and all... hm... let's say i'll just be treating this bday as if it's my 21st JUST in case.. hahaha =D

Anyway... I LOVE YOU BABY!!! xiao barbie! =D hahhaa muacks!

Learning everyday

2010-05-30T16:48:00.002+08:00

The RSF gang with Loose!!! =D

Me with Loose!

WHOOO~~~ It was great to have Loosejoint from Elite Force Crew to come down!! =D yay... happy to learn, happy to be reminded the feeling of the love to get out there and dance in a circle. =) Am reflecting what I've learnt and now I've a new goal!!! haha.. =D

Keep dancing people!!!

GRADUATION!!!

2010-05-23T18:10:00.005+08:00

Alright alright... big deal's over! I've graduated with diploma blah blah blah.. So... since we're done with the boring part, haha... Here comes the GOOD parts! PHOTOS!!! yeap! Best way to keep those funny memories and best way to remember how life in the past on that day was like!

Thanks HC for being a wonderful class ... although i'm not really attached to the class, i'm still proud to come from the class of HS0703!!! haha... =D

And graduation party was the bomb! Haha.. can't believe it's already been 3 years! haha... BUT this doesn't mean i wont be back in NYP.. haha... of cos i still have FB! omg -.- so it's like graduate from SBM bah.. =D

Anyway, enjoy the pics I uploaded! Cheers! Congrats again to ALL graduands! <3

Dad and me

Mum and me

camwhoring with xiao jia!

Rene!!!

With Family

My Cute Lil' Class =)

Blogging Nonsense Again

2010-05-14T00:21:00.002+08:00

One fine day in the club room...
He was just doing not much...
When SUDDENLY! He burst into a spontaneous act!!
And this is the outcome...

Sneak preview! halfway there..

Artist at work

Appreciating his masterpiece after he was done!

yep... he can open seafood restaurant liao!

Smokey Bronze Makeup

2010-05-09T17:51:00.000+08:00

So... I'd like to introduce the Videos I watch to learn how to actually put on eye make-up! Haha... This girl is really good at introducing how to style hair and do make-up. And furthermore, it suits Asians!!! So hope to share this with other girls out there =D

Pardon her accent.. she's like from Northern Ireland (but she's actually a hongkie!)

Check out more of her Videos on www.youtube.com/user/bubzbeauty/

Special Occasion calls for Special Celebrations!

2010-05-09T01:41:00.009+08:00

Went out with him. He came over to pick me. We watched Ip Man 2 (dope!!!). Went a lil' window shoppin'. Had the BEST dinner ever. Spent the most AWESOMEST DAY ever! ^_^

(and yes... i realized i hvn't blogged in a long while)

Well, there's really nothing else much to share.

So... ENJOY THE ILLUSTRATIONS

that help me tell the story the best!

Times when... I don't look myself!

Those are REAL lashes btw! -.- I do not know how to put on fake.

Haha... Successful attempt I hope?

Our Special Evening together...

Guess where!

OoO... So much I didn't what to choose from!

So this is me considering VERY hard!

Hoping I'll make the right choice...

Decided!

STILL hoping I made a right choice!

His look when I was reading the menu...

His look when I delayed looking at the menu,

'cause I didn't know WHAT to eat...

Our Special 'Dessert' (as he called it...)

HIS --> it's a cocktail

MINE--> also a cocktail.. exception made only for that night for me to drink...

(honestly I didn't know it'll be such a BIG portion -.-)

And we went SIGHTSEEING!!! =D now u know where!

Had an AWESOMEST Time dear!!!

Thank you for everything!!!! =D ILU~

love of my life!

2010-04-28T01:17:00.002+08:00

That's no SMALL BOY! haha... =D

He's my WITTLE WOVING BOYFWEN!!!

Jiayou tmr for ur NAFA RR!!! luv u

glad i always have u around...

When you're bored 101

2010-04-26T17:13:00.003+08:00

haha.. this is just the outcome when a girl is thrown at home.. with nothing to do.. waiting for time to pass... and stuck with her lonely laptop which was attached with a web cam to splurge nonsense around the earth and what's left in it!!! haha... PEACE!

Masking Time!!!

2010-04-24T23:28:00.004+08:00

Doing my facial! Haha...

I feel like such a NOOB when it comes to taking care of my skin!

And... THIS is what I use! My FIRST time trying it too!

It's a Watsons house brand facial...

Not bad I might add

AND...

SEE ME GLOW!

GOSH! My skin feels refreshed and BOUNCY!!! Feels DARN good to treat me-self well once in awhile... HAHAHA.... and i HIGHLY recommend all girls (and guys) to use facial masks weekly at least... esp if u like to damage ur skin by eating fried food DAY N NITE! haha... =D It doesn't even cost THAT much.. the previous mask i used cost less than $2! From SASA... and it was really good as well! haha...

Ok... So i kinda bloomed late... -.- i HATE the idea of taking care of my own face and skin... but now since i think im GOING to hit 20 =( (sad to say), i really have to START if not is NEVER gonna happen ... haha...

So those out there who are LIKE me... START NOW NOW NOW!!! it's not even that expensive as going out to a spa to get a facial... and it's simple as 1,2,3! haha... [that's y i do it! if not i won't bother! and i alway kiasu! i buy the cheap ones that aren't like loreal or whatever sh*t... if not i wont buy also! and they work FINE ...]

HAHA... machiam prrrromoter ar bev... no lah.. just STRONGLY encouraging... haha... u dun wanna grow old and hv a saggy face.. by then u wanna go for botox u also will look like u in shock! -.- haha.... so... take care of urselves now!

OUT-

Confused

2010-04-23T15:08:00.002+08:00

Ok... So it's been a while since I blogged... =P ok... LONGER than a while... haha...

Anyway, some updates are... We didn't win ANYTHING at SDD... =D haha... But it's OOOOKKKK!!! haha... Cos we got encouragement and praises from DOMINIQUE of WCO/Electric Trouble!!! haha... And I've learnt that I've really gotta work harder if I want to reach my goals!! =D yeah...

Ok... moving on... I feel like lately I've been hearing so many stories and statements out there that are sooo different and that clashes, I dunno what to believe in anymore. I'm really just in a state of confusion. Although I've heard much, but then, I still have not witness any. And not knowing what and who to believe is the worst! It's like it's not as easy as just to trust ur instincts anymore. I'm literally feeling lost!

Oh well... I guess we'll just have to actually see how things go from here and try to avoid what negative things I've heard and yet still place a certain amount of trust as I wasn't forgone (haha... stupid word) either... -.-

Imperfect

2010-04-14T02:24:00.003+08:00

I know I'm not the prettiest, the one with the best smile, body or looks...
But recently I've been real put down by the way I look -.-

I mean, I admit.. I envy ... Envy too much I guess...

And I KNOW that I've to get back to realizing what I have is enough... And as long as my BF loves me, and I love who I am on the inside... Things should be alright.. haha

Anyway, feel free to leave me a tag to cheer me up... You dun have to say things like 'Aw Bev, u're beautiful' or those kinda nonsense... just give me encouragement like I'm a good friend or smt like that... HAHA... =D

Not shy arh Bev! yup! for once i not shy... WAHAHA... =)

ok... that's all for now... =) cheers!

Quick shoutout

2010-04-09T00:58:00.006+08:00

Just to Thank you guys... for going through the pain (which is XM... LOL... joking lah.. i LUB u... ) and the sweat.. and the LAUGHS!!! =D loves many many!!! GO RAW STREET!

I'm improving on my manual "perm"

2010-04-08T02:07:00.002+08:00

Yeah!! People... my skills are improving... haha... =) from what you saw in the previous blog post to what is posted below!!! whoo~~~ haha... Getting a hand of the curlers already... watched some tutorials on YouTube and BAM!!! =D Better curls in an instant...

Sorry I keep blogging about my CURLS.. but I'm kinda obsessed with 'em right now... as u can already see... =) Why?? All part of the effort to look better than I was naturally grown.. -.- haha... Can't blame me! With such 'not-so-outstanding' look like mine, enhancement is inevitable... wahahha... =D

Ok, so I did sorta a before-and-after shot... =)

BEFORE

AFTER

Anyway... I just bought a new Lucidol hairspray and am prepared to start to look better! haha... =D yay!!! hm... Since when I became so vain? well.. let's just say it's probably the 20-year-old that's kicking in! =P well... i know hairsprays are really awesome... so i'll keep styling to a minimum... =D haha... and learn to protect my hair more too... =D

Out with Baby

2010-04-05T00:40:00.006+08:00

Went out today!!! Finally.. some time with BF!!! =D heh heh... today.. i did something special... =) as you can see from the pics.. YES! i curled my hair!!! =D haha... how? well.. i was in my dad's room toilet, just blowing my hair, ready to go out... =) than i realized there was smt beside the sink i have ALWAY managed to 'over-look'! haha... My mum's Watson hair curler!!! and i was like.. OMG!! since WHEN was that there? haha... so.. i took it, heated it, and curled my mid-length hair.. wahhaha... evidence is below...

And after curling, i kinda feel like going ahead to do a perm...! but thinking again.. i rather have a choice btw curls and straight hair.. so i bought this hair curling solution, sorta to let the curls stay when i heat them.. =) yeah!

So of cos, other than a pic of myself, here are some memories capture on cam below!

the curls aren't really obvious...

cos i only did a lil', thinking i was late to meet BF.

plus, i didnt use anything else to make the curls stay

aww... he was buying our dinner for me... haha

DINNER!!!

and DESSERT time.. (didnt take pics of what we ate.. haha)

BF & me

finally, ending of with a smooch! =)

so today was fun! overall. haha... we watched Clash of the Titans 3D... haha... interesting.. but not exactly MY kind... so we all know who chose the movie.. wahaha.. [but i enjoy watching with u dear =D]

but i really hope to watch How To Train Your Dragon in 3D man!!! =D cos it was AWESOME in 2D... so we can only imagine how much more awesome it'll be in 3D! HAHAHAHA...

--current hooked on song: Naturally by Selena Gomez & The Scene

Cheers~

I love iPhone apps!

2010-04-02T17:28:00.000+08:00

I just LOOOVE how effects can make pics look soo good.. Exhibit A:

From this...

To this!!! =)

Yeap! Love the iPhone apps!

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Inspiration and Strength. Come to me

2010-04-02T01:15:00.002+08:00

I need Inspiration. I need Strength.
I want Satisfaction. I want Fulfilment.

It seems everytime we climb up a slight step, we tend to slip a steeper one. And full potential is never met. I want to be so much better than this. Than what is in front of my eyes. I know I can be better.

So where is it lost to? The confidence, the belief?
Give me the strength to fight on.

SDD!!!

2010-03-25T00:53:00.004+08:00

WHOO~~~ It's Singapore Dance Delight ya'll!!! =D

So as most of ya'll know, us, group of girls =D are preparing for this competition! And MAN! Is it hard work!!! =S

And to dedicate this out to the rest of DEEP FT.! Thanks girls for working hard side by side wimme... Thanks for the laughs and the pains (muscle pains. haha)... It wasn't actually bad working with you girls... So nothing much to say about. =)

Anyway... Watch out for the Deep Ft.s during SDD Preliminary on 27 March... =D Cheers!

I love Literature

2010-03-22T02:35:00.003+08:00

"Why is a raven like a writing desk?" -- a question posed by the Mad Hatter from the story Alice in Wonderland and lastest hit movie "Alice in Wonderland" starring Johnny Depp, this riddle seems to have aroused the curiosity and interest of many's heart.

So, I did a mini research on it and found the answer. Originally in the book, after a few pages of letting Alice guess, the Hatter admits "I haven't the slightest idea." This scene of the riddle is intended to illustrate the topsy-turvy world that Alice has fallen into and that, with the whole book illustrating how confusing the adult world seems to children. When Alice asks about why they are wasting their time with riddles that can't be solved, she's really asking a larger questions about adults.

Also, I found out later that a later edition of the book addressed the issue, saying "Because produce few notes, and are very flat; and it is never put with the wrong way front."

All these reminded my of my literature lessons in Secondary School. And I DO miss it! Haha... It reminded me of how literature sometimes intrigue me! =D Hm...

So I'm just gonna end of by saying... Does this show I'm MAD? BONKERS? Well let me tell you something, all the best people are! =) Nothing to argue with there! =)

My Best Friend's My Boyfriend

2010-03-19T13:29:00.001+08:00

I'm just glad and grateful my boyfriend is my best friend... That we share everything, no secrets, nothing we can hide from each other cos we read each other like an open book... =)

We know and understand each other's past. We have been through all different stages of friendship and know each others' likes and dislikes.

So as to dedicate this to u, i am more than happy to have u and am ready for what comes ahead. Nothing is ever going to be easy. But that's why u are my best friend, and my boyfriend. =)

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It's All Because Of You

2010-03-14T00:26:00.002+08:00

Thank you baby =) so fortunate and so blessed to have you! =)

Jokes.. Black alert

2010-03-08T13:46:00.000+08:00

Hahahaha... Joke of the week! This is seriously hilarious and u had to be there!!! (This may get a lil racist but pls dun take it too harsh thx)

Ok, so me and xiao mei were taking the train from dover home. And when the train arrived, and we were abt to board, there were a few blacksters in the same cabin, so we decided nt to enter and to move to another cabin to enter... And WHAT DO U KNOW?! MORE BLACKSTERS!!! Omg.... -.- So we turned away and ran the opposite direction to enter the train. Phew!

"So what's so funny abt that?!" --Ok, i told u u HAD to be there! Both our reactions couldn't be more synchronized man!!! Lol... It was without speaking we knew we both didnt wanna enter the cabin! Herh herh!! JOKES! omg... Think back also feel like laughing.. -.-

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New favourite song

2010-03-06T22:52:00.005+08:00

ok... hope those of you who visit my blog will click and listen to this song... it's my NEW Favourite song!!! hahaha...

love the lyrics too! meaning behind is so strong, so raw, it hits the spot where it really means smt... =) the lyrics are below the vid if u wanna sing-along like how i like to... or just read thru the lyrics, it's enough! heh heh... =D

PEACE

You by the light is the greatest find
In a world full of wrong you're the thing that's right
Finally made it through the lonely to the other side

You said it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark
And I'm in love and I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time in my only life

This could be good, it's already better than that
And nothing's worse than knowing you're holding back
I could be all that you needed if you let me try

You said it again my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark
And I'm in love and I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time in my only

I only said it 'cause I mean it, I only mean it 'cause it's true
So don't you doubt what I've been dreaming
'Cause it fills me up and holds me close whenever I'm without you

You said it again my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
Watching the shadows burning in the dark
And I'm in love and I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time in my only life

Brunch with baby

2010-03-06T19:46:00.000+08:00

Met with baby for brunch this afternoon... And story of the day? We ate at Sakae and he ordered cha soba to share... After pouring in the sauce thingy... I was like "u think loh hei ah?" Than, we started to loh hei with the cha soba. These are shots for evidence! Hahaha...

Mind u.. We weren't just mixing the noodles, but he was going on like "Good health ah; Prosperous year ah!" etc... -.- Hahaha...

But it was fun. Yup. Maybe YOU should try it sometime too? =D

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Hot weather makes Bev hot-headed

2010-03-05T15:08:00.000+08:00

(Heh heh... The small boy at my home... ^_^)

Urgh! Recently the weather has just been deadbeat hot! And i've to on fans and aircon to full-blast throughout the whole day!!! Omg!!!

And cos of this blasted weather... All my rashes started to work up again!!! And my mood goes with it... -.- yup i admit. Cos of all the stupid weather and rashes stuff, i get uber frustrated damn easily!!! Yikes!!!

Sucky sucky!!! Hope the weather gets better. =)

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Caught in the Middle

2010-03-03T14:29:00.002+08:00

have you ever felt like at times , you are sooo motivated.. but yet at the same time, u dare not use that motivation for a particular reason... TELL ME ABOUT IT! hahaha....

i really hope to stay positive for everyone and not be the one again to break down all the time... but it seems... difficult to try to use that energy cos it always comes across in a wrong direction... sigh.. guess it's just so that i hv to keep trying and not lose faith...

oh well... things ALWAYS get better in the end... right? i hope--

--out

Refurbished!

2010-02-28T22:05:00.002+08:00

As you can ALL see... something has been changed!!! hahahaha... okok.. OBVIOUSLY it's my blogskin.... yeap! why? cos i've got time now!!! whoo-hoo~~~ hahahaha...

and i like it... it's sorta designed by myself... haha... put diff things tgt to suit what I like... =D and phew! took only 2 hours.... not bad eh? haha... =D

ok... what triggered was XM lah!!! say i nv update... than i was like.. ok.. i find time to make my blog fresher and update more often... -.- hahaha... so i hope to keep up!

anyway, uber excited about SDD!!! yeah! and got fweeeel sia!!! hope wont be too brought down by other stuffs going on in my head though... anyway, ppl who STILL read my blog, feel free to TAG TAG!! =D make streetxbev.blogspot lively again! =D

=peace=

Pure Bliss

2010-02-25T23:11:00.003+08:00

Thank you for making it so wonderful! =) Just like to dedicate this to you...

You've always been the one who understood me the most, stood by me all the time, and showered me with the love that I never deserved.

It's clear to me that everything we went through strengthens us up. And although we disagree many times... =P I know our future will work out fine. =)

.

<3

AHHH!!! All has ENDED

2010-02-22T23:24:00.002+08:00

ok.. finally, my internship is OVER! HAHAHA... omg omg omg.. excited.. but still thinking of my next step.. well... not really sure where to go from here. but still uber excited abt graduating! hahaha... and going back to DANCE!!! whoo~

now i finally hv more time to blog, to do stupid things ppl do when they have too much time, etc... hahaha... but sure will miss some of those friends i met at work... but it's alright.. =) that's what facebook is for! heh heh... =)

who knows what the hell might happen in future.. but for now, i wanna live in the present to the FULLEST! yeah!

out-

Freedom!

2010-02-10T21:37:00.000+08:00

Gosh... Ok, i realized im not really a kinda person whose life ppl will be interested in knowing.. That's y i dun bother to blog ? Haha... Either that or there's just that my life has too many secrets to share.. Lol

Anyway, internship's ending soon!!! Haha... Freedom~ freedom~ FREEDOM!!! haha... But on a less 'positive' side, that means no income, and i might have to get another job??? Hm. We'll see...

The scary thing is... I have no idea what are my plans!!! That, ladies and gentlemen, i just gotta figure out!

Out-

New Year, 2010

2010-01-05T10:31:00.000+08:00

Hey ppl!!!! I'm baaaaack! (again)

Ok ok... I know i've not been blogging for like how long?! Haha... Anyway, HAPPY BELATED NEW YEAR!!! lol... Omg... I'm like gonna get 1year older! -.- man!

Ok... Anyway, soon i'll be doing some construction to my blog... 8 more weeks!!! Yeah! Cant wait! =D than after that i'll be freeeee! For the moment at least... Haha... =P oh well... Hanging in tight!

OUT-

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Sad life this is

2009-12-18T18:07:00.001+08:00

I'm back again.. This time with not so happy news.. =( Why? Cos life's just cruel!!! I'm not doing anything i'm supposed to be doing... And what i'm not supposed to do piles up on me! Ya just wonderful... Anyway, i give up u know!

Oh.. Sure, what happened to the other bev who stayed strong? Ya, she's practically dead! No support from anyone can really kill! With the whole competition commitment thing n losing the hp... Ya thanks for being there!

Oh well, just too frustrated for anything right now!!!

OUT-

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It's already DECEMBER!

2009-12-09T20:31:00.001+08:00

Hey peeps! Can u believe it?! It's already the month of christmas!!! Omg... Tis the season to be jolly? Well... Maybe nt quite. Gosh! Still feeling time is passing damn slow for attachment. Haha...

But! Recital is just this sunday!!!! Omg... Haha... So 1 thing down... Still got Gatsby to go... And Floor the Love?? Well, there's still a dispute about that... Yup! =D

Anyway, now i'm on the train on the way for LAST waacking recital prac at o school... Hm... From now on, there's not much reason for me to request for morning shift on wednesdays! Bummer! Lol...

Oh well, with update again soon.. Probably about recital? Shrug. Peace!

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Learning...

2009-12-05T21:34:00.001+08:00

We live in a world of imperfection.. So how are we to deal with it?

Learn! I'm anything but perfect... And there can be so many times we wanna break down.. But i guess when we got the strength to pull it together, we just gotta learn.

So, i'll learn =)

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Stuck!

2009-12-01T16:23:00.000+08:00

Do you sometimes feel you're living but you're not alive? Don't worry, it's common... Haha... Not that we all live in a fantasy world we all want. It's always a case of compromising the time you have. Be it for urself or for others...

Although i can't wait for attachment to end, i cant see what is held in the future for me after graduation. And that's even more intimidating than now just negotiating and compromising time...

Just here hoping i can accomplish my post-graduation list (which i'm coming up with SOON) ! Haha...

Peace_

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Blogging from me iPhone!

2009-11-28T01:05:00.000+08:00

I'm baaaack!

Whoo~hoo...! Lol... First time testing blogging from my iphone... Haha. Now i dun need to wait for my stupid laptop to load to go online to post! =) much more convenient. And i'll blog more often!

Haha... Get ready for alot of random and SHORT posts from now on... Heh heh... Oh well, so this will just be round 1 for now =D

In deep voice, "I'll be back!" *wink*

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3 Months ONLY???

2009-11-26T17:23:00.002+08:00

haha.. I'M BACK!!! From a very long time of not blogging again... hahaha... well.. can't blame me...with stupid shifts like mine... can hardly ever find the time to blog... anyway... i also dun wanna become a compulsive blogger.. so once in awhile is good enough for me! =)

anyway... been super tired of EVERYTHING recently.. im sorry to those who were dragged down becos of what i had to go thru... hm... i really can't wait for the next 3 months to pass by!!! =) and after graduation... it'll be fun fun fun first and then... i can decide what i wanna do with my future... hahaha =P

oh well... dun have much else for now... =) going to sch to .... skyve... -.- haha... stupid i know cos i go SCHOOL -.- well, if it wasn't for SOMEONE... ^_^ ok... catch up again soon! ciao~

iPhone Features... haha

2009-11-13T17:26:00.002+08:00

Some applications on iPhone is really AWESOME to play around with... see the pics above?? not bad eh? hahaha.... esp the last photo... haha.. can u spot WHERE is the pic at??? haha... and it's on the bill board of TAIWAN!!! aiseh... haha... ya as u can see.. on purpose lah...

oh well.. just a random post! cos i realized my blog was getting dull and needed some pics... so HERE YOU ARE! enjoy!

Pouring Things OUT

2009-11-12T22:39:00.002+08:00

Maybe it's the stress... Or maybe it's just the mood swings... But I HATE LIFE RIGHT NOW!!! Urgh!!!

Everything is sooo super screwed up lately!!! I'm seeing things that other people got privilege to do that I DON'T... And I'm getting the worst days of my life and the one I NEED the MOST can't be THERE for me!!!! F*** IT...

So, I'm just supposed to be alright? Let things go? "Oh.. Bev's gonna be OK..." Well... I'M NOT!!!

F*** this world...
F*** this shit...
F*** my life!!!

angry as hell right now... and are YOU there??? NO...!

Still Persistent!

2009-11-10T17:50:00.002+08:00

ok... some days.. it just feels SUPER tiring and like i wanna just drop on the floor, and slp! but i'm still stubborn and persistent in going to sch to dance etc... sigh... i dunno if my body can take it but i'll force it to! hahaha...

although i've not been dancing OFTEN recently... i still am trying my best to catch up in every way... whether is it looking at myself... or when working with others... it's really not easy and i understand the amount of tiredness those working last time go thru during production... sigh...

but... i really hope attachment ends soon!!! omg!!!! i WAS looking forward to it before.. but working is soooo sooo... tiring! drain so much energy... sigh... =S

aite.. anywayz... gotta go sch! catch up with blogging soon.. again... or at least so i hope .. haha... ciao

2 Months down!

2009-10-29T10:55:00.002+08:00

so next week's back to day shift for me! hahaha... wow... 2 month of attachment over already! left with 4 more to go... lol... can't wait for graduation man!

anyway... been really kinda tiring lately cos of midnight shift... and sometimes i get so lazy, i cant even be bothered to eat before going to work! -.- sigh... slpy... just feel like slping all day... hm... =P

oh well.. but back to day next week alr... hope grandpa faster come back s'pore man! my transportation fee is going up up!!! and i MEAN....TAXI lah!!! hahaha... cos i super lazy to take public transport in the morning... i take taxi... WITH peak hr chrg some more!!! omg!! lol...

anyway.. hoping for more time to dance and spend with =) .... ok!!! that's all for now..

cherios!

Missing KBox!!!

2009-10-19T10:09:00.002+08:00

aww man! suddenly craving to go singing... TOOOOOOOO LONG ALREADY!! =( grumpy.. hmph...

BEV NEEDS TO GO SINGING!!! anyone wanna jio?? haha... im the kind who hawgs onto the mic though (i warn first =P) haha... so anyone looking for a kboxing partner??? =D here here!!!

seriously lah... ive been wanting to go for like dunno how long... but this person cannot... that person dun like to sing... -.- so in the end... NEVER GO KBOX FOR LIKE 6MTHS ALR??? -.- urgh... i'm a person who can't survive without the mic ok? haha... (and dance shoes also of cos haha) ya.. i'm greedy.. i want best of both worlds...

anyway... if u're reading this and free and available , msg me! let's go singing tgt... than i can lose my voice! and i can go work and just do admin stuff.. no need talk to guests!!! HAHAH... 2 bird,1 stone... =D nah.. jk... but really, if anyone interested...JIO PLS~!!!

=)

Losing Motivation

2009-10-15T21:27:00.002+08:00

feel so lethargic lately when going to work... =( used to be all enthusiastic and such... after a number of scoldings... and a few screw ups here and there... it feels like i've kinda lost the motivation.. BUT... i got 4.5 months MORE!!! hahah.... MATI.

so what to do? go work lor... sigh...

-off to work.. i am-

Making Way... Stepping Back.

2009-10-13T19:55:00.002+08:00

From now on... That's what I'm gonna learn to do. Whether it'll go overboard or not, I don't know. Maybe til the point I FULLY step back? HA. What a joke is everything huh? People don't mean what they say... Hurting those who think they mean it... BULLSHIT!

So... now, I'll do as one wishes...

BYE!

Hopes Everything Will Work Out Fine...

2009-10-06T15:45:00.001+08:00

so... now i'm posted to midnight shift... partially cos it's sort of pre-planned... partially cos i requested, i guess... well it's really for like recital, production and all those stuff... still kinda worried on how i'm supposed to find time to cope... =S cos work will start at 10:30pm...

and my whole slping time will hv major alterations... =S hm... so i'm still thinking... if i shld request to go back to early shift.. but... FOR NOW... i'll try the 'graveyard' shift... =) and if i can't take it... i'll see how it goes... HAHA =P

aite! that's all for now...

really wishing i can make more time... =(

-ciao-

Out of Boredom

2009-09-30T18:19:00.002+08:00

Haha... So i'll be going for waacking recital prac later ( FINALLY!!! ) And right now... I'm just feeling bored... Lol... Why? 'Cause I'm waiting for Mr Teo to get from his work place to YCK so I can go meet him for dinner =)

So I'm just staring at my screen right now... Not really knowing what I wanna do... And I started a new post, not knowing what to blog... Haha... It's quite fun actually. To blog randomly... (ok, I'm officially running outta my mind!)

Anyway.. I've got LOADS to catch up for waacking =S ... SI LAH (die lah)... hm... So long nv dance alr also.... I guess I just have to add EXTRA oil!!! =S

Ok... Maybe another post for another time...

Today's saying: " 90% of the things we say doesn't come out verbally. And 90% of the things we do non-verbally, makes life difficult for everyone else! "
--morale of the story??? Try your best NOT TO DO ANYTHING!!! Hahahahahahaha... ok, that's all for me today!

Thanks to my not-so-lil sis...

2009-09-29T02:01:00.003+08:00

A super old picture of us... haha... but GREAT memories.

A sister that I never always had... but glad I found =)

Today, I received a ... rather long text msg from my dear lil sis... =) And well... I realize... She's no little girl anymore... =) She's all grown up and a young adult now... =)

Thanks u blurdo... for the msg... =) reading it puts a smile on my face. Although I was on OT when I read the msg and never reply... =P

It's good to be reminded that there's always ppl actually there... =) I will try to be more optimistic and look forward instead of regretting...

To my sis... Thanks again... Something that doesn't take much effort like a text msg can actually change a perception and thinking of a person =) LOVE YOU!!! haha...

Disconnected.

2009-09-28T03:02:00.002+08:00

have u ever felt u dunno what's happening out there anymore?
feel like u're just trapped in ur own world... oblivious to what's happening to the friends u always knew about...

i hope i can make up for everything in the 4 days i have...

PLEASE PLEASE PLEEEAAAASE!! with a cherry on top... =(

let my 'reconnect' and bring me back on the same path with everyone else...

losing faith...

My Dear's 21st

2009-09-25T00:57:00.002+08:00

this post is coming in a lil late but no matter, my lil bf turned 21 !!! =D haha... big boy now... =) and going to experience more things to come... =) but i'll be by ur side.. no matter what! <3

btw... thx to all those who helped take the pics... i brought my cam that day but.. haha... was so lazy to take down and start taking pics... =P

once again.. hope u enjoyed ur bday dear.. and hope u liked the special 21st special... =) love u!

he doesnt like this photo... he says his face looks fat here -.-

as cute as ever!! hahah... =P

Only Now I Realize...

2009-09-23T12:37:00.002+08:00

actually, feeling that u belong somewhere is not controlled by urself... it's something ppl arnd u play a big part on... and gradually, i understand the feeling of not being wanted at where i thought i belonged... it's sad... demoralizing... (and on top of that, i've got work to stress over)... everything's just not going the way it should..or at least the way i thought it would...

i was never an ideal 'choice'.. neither was i the one who could even be considered to be a choice.. it's funny cos u could nv see what's wrong... but accept the fact that it's just not you.

so ppl out there, if u're the one with someone who wants u... with a goal to reach tgt with a bunch of others... and has opportunity to even fight for this goal.. feel fortunate & grateful. =) cos u'll nv know when this feeling will no longer be there to find.

demoralized-

pic updates!!!

2009-09-19T11:39:00.004+08:00

FINALLY!!! my blogger's back up... MAN! so irritating the past few weeks! can't upload any pics.. make my blog look so dull.. HEHEH...

anyway, just some updates, next week's schedule is yet another killer... i hv no time for dance again. i think i can kiss goodbye to recital -.- damn!

oh well... that's that for bad news... today will be going for jr's bday celebration... so looking forward to meet other fb peeps that i've not seen for quite a while as well... =D yay! hope got chance to stay over as well... hm...

anyway, these are just some picture updates since i sorta started work? not alot i know but i'm not a cam-whore kinda person either.. lol... REALLY! but i CAN be... =P

on duck tours arranged by the company =) [not gonna name names]

can see the floating platform and flyer!

the yet-to-be-done IR... Marina Bay Sands

Mummy Merlion... so said by the tour guide.. =D

These are the older photos...

on the helipad of the building (of where i work of cos)

me in my uniform... if u can tell where i work... than it's ur own observation. i didnt say anything.. haha... but i'm happily working there...

... except for the roster of cos... -.- hinder my dance-time =(

Hold On!

2009-09-14T12:45:00.000+08:00

this week's roster is SCARRYYY!!! it's all afternoon shifts for me.. meaning, i will only end at 11pm, meaning.. NO DANCE!!! bummer... i can't go for waacking... for 2 DAYS!!! =( and... no sessions... no nothing.. =( y? cos by the time i get there, everyone will alr be heading home!!!

ok... so i'm looking forward to start 'real' work at the reception... but... the schedule's really crazy.. -.- oh well.. that's y i even got time to blog! my work only starts at 2:30pm today.. and tmr half day.. so it'll start at 6:30pm!! haha...

oh well.. better get used to it.. if still i can't go for waacking.. guess i might have to drop out =( sad to say... =( =( =(

cheers all! gtg

Life Lately

2009-09-06T15:50:00.002+08:00

So... work's still ok lately cos I haven't gone through training yet, so I dun really have anything much to do while on duty. HAHA... =D only been doing some sai kang here and there =D

But I'm starting to worry a lil that I'll get less chance to dance and meet with friends... =( I dun wanna drift apart from everyone...

My schedule this coming week is more of a morning occupying thing.. I've got my afternoons mostly free..which is a good thing I gues... Can find more opportunities to dance and do own stuff. hm...

Can't really upload and recent photos cos my blogger has gone a lil haywire. But I'll upload them as soon as blogger allows me to .. haha...

For now, ciao everyone..

Holiday's Ending...

2009-08-31T16:04:00.000+08:00

Ok, so internship starts tmr... All along, I'v been kinda enthusiastic about it, looking forward to work... But it seems like thinking about the amount of free time I'll have left, it kinda just gets to u .

But, definitely, I'll put full effort into it. No doubt, lots of free time's gonna get eaten up, but I'm sure I'll figure my time out. Nothing too difficult about that... right? Haha... =P

Anyway, I'll just try to be as prepared as I can I guess =)

Ciao!

Before Internship Officially Starts

2009-08-27T12:48:00.000+08:00

bev will be taking a few days off... =) to enjoy, relax, and revitalize =D so when intern starts, bev will perform her best =D

going to enjoy and nothing's gonna come in my way!!! <3

p.s. jiayou all those who got in Suntec Heats!!! SUPPORT U ALL, ALL THE WAY!!! =) =) =)

In a Good Mood

2009-08-26T00:21:00.003+08:00

think this smile will be arnd for awhile... =D and it's been awhile since i felt like that... haha... but i have no idea how long this happy mood will last...soon, everything's gonna get hectic cos of attachment.. dun get me wrong.. i look forward to attachment.. working at a hotel front desk! but that also means... working hours clashing with time i spend with ppl, for dance.. etc...

hm... keeping fingers crossed that my schedule will fit into everything nicely as a whole! =D

alright... i'm just gonna lay back and relax this week before any time gets snatched away by work =P

♥

YAY!!! No More EXAMS!

2009-08-21T18:41:00.000+08:00

super hyped! cos from now on.. NO MORE STUDYING FOR ME... (as in for my poly life of cos =D) whoohoo~~~~ =D ok.. i've not exactly graduated... still got like .5year more due to attachment... but... it's like.. no more projects... no more tests.. just a report every week & one final report at the end of the semester and ... GRADUATION, HERE I COME!!! =D

ok... i understand attachment's gonna be tough... but... this is the industry i chose... so i dun mind getting exposed ya... =D ok... at least now, i've got exactly 10 DAYS of break before attachment starts! so... make full good use of those 10 days i will!

uber excited... (but bet it's gonna be tiring too)... can't wait!

Not All Memories of the Past are Sweet

2009-08-20T15:33:00.000+08:00

Can someone teach me how to let go of the past?

Sometimes, flashbacks aren't really the sweetest things that may happen to you.

But yet, it seems to difficult to let go something that has affected you so much, and hurt you so deep.

"In need of a Brainwash"

Counting down: 1 Paper!!!

2009-08-19T18:23:00.000+08:00

yay!!! just one more paper to go!!! =D uber excited... it's like.. no more exams in whole of poly life ... but, i won't really get a long break at all... hm... at least it's one week =)

anyway... i can't believe alex choo will be attached to the same place and same dept as me during internship! haha... it's like... WHOO... and shirley tee's only gonna be near by... ya, i MIGHT get awkward... but i'd rather hv someone there to accompany til i get used to the environment... =D hahah... and 1 mth is better than nothing... haha =P

ok... that's about all for now... there's smt a lil wrong with my blogger.. stupid blogger... stupid laptop... always givin' me probs! hm...

ok.. ciao!

it's not fair...

2009-08-16T22:24:00.001+08:00

i've never really let such things bother me so much before... but it seems now, it's slowly taking a hold on me... and i'm just wondering, if things will ever change.

i want...
to be able to play on the beach and swim in the sea with no worries of skin allergies.
to be able to look nice and not treated by how ppl see me on the outside.
to be so much better, to give so much more.

but right now.. i'm just not good enough... too restricted, too judged.

at first, i just accepted it as it was. but sometimes, certain factors influence u so much u just think that u want so much more than u have.

so is it me? or is it life's just too cruel to be true?

at least it's just 3 papers!

2009-08-13T00:42:00.004+08:00

hm... been studying lately for the exams... it's like... FINALLY! last round of exams! yay!!! haha... so i'll just keep this post short... haha... just to let ppl know out there i'm still alive!

here's some pics taken at Fong's 21st! haha... the rest of the pics are on Facebook... and i've alr tagged everyone that were in the photos in my cam... so do view there for more pics =D

cheers all!!!

rui and me ^_^

the birthday boy!!!

OH...AND MY HONEY CAME!!! so long nv see her... missed her plenty
=D yeah.. see her kissing me on the cheek there?
SHE'S MINE!

My Class

2009-08-07T01:23:00.003+08:00

These are the people I've been with throughout my going-3 years of Poly life... =) all the projects, the boring lectures, the stressing exams =)

Although we're not graduating for another semester, it feels like we're parting already... Cos the next half of the school year, we're be heading out into the real world! OMG!!! haha... no more chionging for projects tgt, no more complaining about lecturers =P

Everything will change from now on... especially after exams... but HC, I LOVE U (well, most of u at least haha) ... JUJU, i miss you!!! ting-er, pervertic jiayi, pei pei, will miss the stupid moments too.. haha

It's like... we're graduating after tmr.. LOL... -.- but im sure during attachment period, we'll meet up still =D yay... look forward to future! CHIONG AH!!!

Can't Wait!

2009-08-02T23:54:00.002+08:00

counting down to the number of projects and presentations left!!! after tmr... it'll be another ICA less!!! YAY!!! super excited... hahaha

than after projects and ICAs... i'm left with exams... 3 papers only... which is far better than the 6 papers we used to have... PLUS.. 6 papers in a WEEK!!! haha... now it's still within a week.. but a good pace =) like that, it'll all be over very soon... and there's even a week's break to study =) yay... happy with this sem's timetable overall =D

on a side note... still dunno if i've passed my intern interview yet =( bummer... it's like... almost 2 weeks! ah... going bonkers waiting... BUT... it's true... no news is good news... =S but it's like making me crazy... so nerve-wrecking.. i'll be like super sian if i get rejected... but if i dunno whether i get in or not... it's like... DARN! haha =D conflicting emotions ya? hm... guess i'll just hv to wait this week again to see...

oh ya... and random-ing again... ndp this year is... WHOO~ haha... think cos it's the first time i watched ndp on the floating parade... like.. there are SOOO many displays/performance i nv seen before... haha.... fireworks were PERTY~~~ haha... really really nice this year... heh heh... love it when the subaru race-car drove.. and the harley group thing too... heh heh... and the 'boats' (or whatever u call them) can DRIFT!!! HIGH LAH... and the sky-divers? nv seemed as fascinating as this time's... lol.. think cos i TOO long nv watch ndp LIVE... lol.. =) but too bad actual day cannot watch... =(

oh ya...to promote a lil here, all SINGAPOREANS pay attention!!! on 9 AUGUST, Sunday, at 2022hr (8:22PM), stop WHATEVER u are doing... and take a short moment to recite the singapore pledge together with all the other fellow singaporeans out there! =) think u rmb the pledge? haha... (this is what i hv to promote for my duty during national day itself)

anyway... had a great day today... =) =) =)

well... tmr's the presentation for resort development & mgmt! JIAYOU!!!

SOOO not productive

2009-07-30T17:00:00.002+08:00

=( i was SUPPOSED to complete my part of the reports for project today... but i woke like at 2pm!!??!!! than totally no mood to do... hm... later going out for dinner... maybe i'll like do my reports after im back.. =P

but im SOOO excited that next week is like last week of school!!! like FINALLY! =P than of cos there are exams.. but that means.... the end of this semester is nearing!!! YAY...

hm... still hvnt got any reply from ms ooi yet about the interview... =S yikes!!! uber nervous and kan-chiong by now... it's like torture lah! ONE WEEK ALREADY... still no reply??? hope can get in... since now still pending.. means still got chance =D hm... i mean... i really dun wanna think of the worse.. if dun get in... it's like ALL OVER again... =_= have to find new company, go for interview... dun even know if can start by 1sept! -.-

ok... so anyway, this is it! the final lapse!! yay... can't wait... =D CHIONG AH

waiting for this semester to be OVER

2009-07-26T01:30:00.002+08:00

AHHH... going crazy over projects... omg... so tired of coping... darn it

anyway, i just realized i haven't uploaded any pics lately... so.. haha... these are a few random pics... lol =P

so... this is me... in the middle of projecting =D haha

Revived. But need REST

2009-07-23T00:36:00.002+08:00

prac today with the others (rsf) was great! =) had fun... although it's like.. how many of us only -.- haha... nvm... but throughout the whole prac, i really felt like i was a zombie =( SUPER tired... physically, and mentally... it was like... all my brain cells die alr... than my energy's already quite washed out! haha... so i didnt really dance much =D

but it feels great to be dancing again with the rest.. i've not danced for AGES!!! yay! looking forward to rachie's waacking tmr!!! =D

anyway, interview with Swissotel/Fairmont is tmr! (oh... well, technically, it's TODAY..later in the afternoon) MAN do i wish i'll do good!!! is like after the thing with Accor did nt go well... sorta hv this phobia le... some more the lecturer in-charge... super fierce... -.- if fail interview.. i think will UBER sian one... haha

so i'm praying hard all goes well!!! haha...

on a side note... I HATE TO WEAR FORMAL OUTFIT!!! =( IT'S SO NOT ME.... (maybe this is a sign... im not meant to be in this industry? haha... if ONLY... can dance all my life) heh heh... *fingers crossed* JIAYOU BEV!!! =D

Recovering...

2009-07-19T13:46:00.002+08:00

can't believe i've caught the flu bug too! almost my whole class got it! isolating at home for 4 days... also can't do much... than cannot do what i originally planned to. gosh!

anyway... i'm recovering.. it's no biggy... not serious either...

yup... that's all the update i have.. wahaha... a bit short.. =) bye

Swamped

2009-07-12T14:34:00.002+08:00

i really pray hard that all my exams and every stupid lil things are over and done with. right now, i'm seriously so hoping for my 6-mth attachment to start!!! MAN! although that means.. work work work... not being sure if there's time for dance... but it's better than being stressed down to think and work for deadlines!

ok... i know it's like ALL part of the process but... com'on!! who isn't sick of all the projects... tests... etc etc.. but ... thankfully, i do have opportunities to relax and just spend time with those i want to... =)

i know i shldn't be complaining so much cos there are ppl out there that are gg thru worst than me... but... hm... just really cant wait for all of this to be over! =_=

Did You Know.....?

2009-07-05T00:14:00.003+08:00

R.I.P Michael Joseph Jackson. Passed on at the early age of 50. Your work will live on and continue to be legend. An inspiration to many singers, artistes, and dancers as well.

Anyway... we should celebrate his work! =) well... i'd like to share some... MAYBE unknown facts... ? haha

Did You Know...

that Stretch starred in AND choreographed the music video of Remember the Time (starring Eddie Murphy, Iman and Magic Johnson).

that MJ did LOCKING!!! in the MV Jam (starring the OTHER MJ - Michael Jordan)...

that MJ could do the stupidest of stunts and turn them into legendary movements!!! if u notice, he DOES actually have 'gayish' gestures... but on him... they just seem to be... sex appeal!!! honestly! he is the sexiest... and undeniable, most iconic KING OF POP that'll ever live!!! =D

yup...! is THAT enough for u? huh huh??? =D and i LOVE the mv of Scream by MJ and his sister Janet Jackson. that was really when they were young.. and my ALL TIME FAVE... 'BLACK OR WHITE'... starred Macaulay Culkin (actor in Home Alone & Home Alone 2), back in the days where.. i still LOVED AND ADORED him ... =D yeah!

lately been watching all those programmes on tv that pay tribute to the King of Pop... quite.. educational... i didnt know ALOT of things til he passed on, sad to say =(

anyway... best wishes to his children who are REALLY adorable.. esp youngest Blanket... =) hope they end up in a family that'll take good care of them... =)

OUT

Blogskin Evolution

2009-07-03T23:20:00.003+08:00

Ok... As you all can see... I've decided to go for the layout that is the most 'updated' in blogger. This is cos I've been having some problems with the other blogskin... and i find it a lil redundant as well... so... =) don't be alarmed.. this is STILL the same blog as it always was! yep...

anyway.. there will be NO tagboard anymore.. but if u wanna leave comments for a blogpost that i've put up, feel free to comment at the "Comment" link below the posts. =) ya ya...

anyway.. i MIGHT remove my blog.. but it's just a maybe. haha... well... i'll see how it goes.. anyway, im getting lazy is posting on the blog anyway.. hahaha.. =) alright! that's all for now! ciao!!!

The Big Groove 2009

2009-07-03T00:15:00.004+08:00

ok... as u guys can see.. im REALLY lazy to blog... so im just gonna post up some pictures taken during TBG =) yeah...

anyway.. the show overall was DOPE.... well... except for... some lah let's just say.. but it felt like time flew so fast during the show... haha... previously i felt it was draggy some more... great job everyone who performed for TBG =D

so... as i promised... SOME of the photos taken =D enjoy!

Fairytales were once upon a time real...

2009-07-01T17:12:00.002+08:00

remember the first time u believed in fairytales? in happily ever after? it seems to go further as we grow older... we forgot that... they were once upon a time... real... real in our hearts... true in our minds.

but as we grow up... we're forced into this state of realism. pretences only work if u were lying to get through in life... make-belief will only make u the center of jokes...

so can fairytales still live in our hearts even when we're grandparents?? or must they be banished?

guess we all wanna believe in smt that's not real once in awhile... what i've learnt... nothing is ever completely right or wrong... =) it's what u believe in that makes u who u are...

so what if we believe in fairytales? so what if we're made a joke out of? we live in this world for ourselves.. not others.

i wanna be happier in everything i do. i wanna love life.

a night out with fb..

2009-06-22T15:33:00.003+08:00

ok.. so it's NOT REALLY a night out... we went to dbl o to support a few fb mates in the jim beam competition.. =) haha... so these are some of the goofy photos we took LOL (ok... very few only... cos i only used my hp)

me... looking like a nerd...smiling like one too

yuebo and me haha

ahaha.. paisei.. this one a bit blur.. the train was moving mah

dope expression... always by juna =D

that's all i really hv for now! peace~

I have a theory... hm...

2009-06-20T20:31:00.003+08:00

ok... i finally come to a realization.. sad but true... i officially only look good in photos!!! -.-

i don't know is it a good thing or bad also but guess... it's something that i can see it as a gift.. or a 'curse' hahaha.. =D sound so sad... lol... ok... it's JUST a theory of mine.. no wrong or right about what i say so let's not make a big fuss out of it.. haha... let's just do a review... here we go!

yea.. the lighting in this photo definitely makes me look more dreamy than in reality -.-

hm... angle of the cam i guess.. haha

yup.. it's WHICH angle u take ur pics... -.-
point NOTED

hm... hair-cover most of the chubbyness...
face angle... allows me to show face shape better...
and most importantly
NEVER take full body pic.. i look slim on my upper half of body... =D
haha... sian -.-

for those ppl who think im CRAZY for doing up the post... well... BITE ME... i've got nothing better to do.. hahaha... yar.. sure... laugh all ur heads off... i just feel it'll be interesting to turn my blog into some kinda column to 'yan jiu' (observe) things... haha...

ok... signing off! ciao!

updates...

2009-06-18T16:37:00.002+08:00

ok... i've not been blogging regularly lately.. but actually.. there isn't much to blog about either.. haha.. i can't really post up pics cos i've not been taking them... haha... and life's simply... normal... =) so...

anyway... KO Night was fun.. =D jasmine, ryu, lesner and i made KO Night history.. and i dun think there'll be any other scenarios like this anytime soon =D yeah... =D hahaha.... we drew all 3 times during our battle and battled it out on our 4th and final round on a 1-on-1 battle... haha... even though jas and i didn't make it to finals... i think this experience has been MUCH more enriching... think finals also wont see draws like this!!! HAHAHA... =D

anyway.. even though we're not able to battle on KO Night Finals, Groovy Aggression will be showcasing during the finals... =D yay! BUT... nothing has been done yet.. jasmine has been busy with jim beam... hahaha... but... we will chiong and do our best =D haha... i mean.. judges from JAPAN are gg to be there!!! omgomgomg... although we're not being judged.. but... erh.... we'll still be seen? heh heh... =D

so.. for now... im practicing/training my waacking.. yupp... =D hahaha... im not really good at it nor mastered it well yet.. that's y im training... haha.. but been kinda lazy recently... LOL... gotta get rid of bad habits man!

oh well... that's about that... can't wait for KO Night Finals and The Big Groove !!! =D WHOO~~~

THANKS EVERYONE!

2009-06-11T22:58:00.002+08:00

haha... i know i said this many times at thru alot of different ways... but still.... thanks everyone who wished me happy birthday and gave me my birthday surprise =) i got a double surprise ytd... one in class... one by fb... thank u ppl!!! =D

and of cos... i wanna thank a special person who helped make everything happen! =) and for those who gave me presents... =) THANK U! haha... thanks for making my 19th bday a pleasurable one! =) sry about looking awful cos i was feeling kinda slpy which made me really moody.. but still.. LOVE YA'LL!!! =D

19... and growing... -.-

So, You Think You're Ready for This?

2009-06-09T17:06:00.003+08:00

=) haha.. i'm just excited that Groovy Aggression got into Semis... =) this is sort of a 'curse' or smt on jas and i.. haha... we always survive til semis only.. =D but still, we feel fortunate that we made it this far.. now... the fight for the finals in on. (although it's really not much of a fight, we all know who the finalists are =D)

but still... Groovy Aggression will be putting in the most of our efforts! not to look to win but not to let ourselves down most importantly =D

peace!~

SEXY DIAMOND COMING TO SINGAPORE!

2009-06-07T22:07:00.002+08:00

yup! the blog title says it all!!! it's OFFICIAL!!!

Sexy Diamond is finally here haha.. Grand Opening's on the 13th June 2009 @ The Heeren Shops #03-02!!!

i got to know of this dope commercial put together by ben & gang [Sunset Alleycats, Da' Street Soulz, RAWR & O Crew]... haha... nice... =D and everything's just so.... SEXY DIAMOND!!! wahhaha.... can't wait!!!

oh ya...

pls support many many!!! =)

slowing my pace to fasten the progress

2009-06-02T00:29:00.002+08:00

sometimes, we dun realize that if we just slow down, take things one step at a time... we'll actually get things accomplished faster... we always thing... rush! chiong! we can get things done faster... but is our mind really thinking clearly when we're rushing? what's going thru our mind when we're gg full speed ahead? =) think about it...

i'm just glad i'm learning... how to slow down my pace at times... see what's happening.. what am i to do... and go ahead with it.

i'm glad that i can clear my vision and see ahead...

i'm glad i live =)

It's gonna get A LOT more empty

2009-06-01T22:14:00.001+08:00

kingkong's moved out... lao bu also... who am i going to complain to from now on? what am i supposed to pig on in the middle of the night? WHAT AM I GOING TO DO!!!! =(

now... i'm really in need of some cheering up... home affairs are starting to look... BLEAK! uh-huh... man am i tired.. but YET... i dun really have any other choice... danggit!

they say ur home's supposed to be ur sanctuary... ur place of safe-keeping and where u feel warmth... B***S***!!! sigh...

guess, i just gotta live with it... BUMMER

thank God i have HER!

2009-05-31T01:33:00.002+08:00

we've come sooo far... from Lime, to FTL, and now KO Night! =) im just glad this girl over here is my partner! =) getting into Semis is really a bonus... w/o this gorgeous girl over here, i think i'd nv get this far. =) we've fought for our own spot and we did it TOGETHER! yeah~~

Love ya babe!
these are just really random photos of us throughout the times we had tgt.. =) some of them are really old... like really long ago.. wahahah... dun mind i dug them out and put them up here cos these are MEMORIES of our experiences tgt... whoo~ =)

KO Night

Lime Funkmeister

haha... for Lime Funkmeister also

(sorry.. couldn't find any photos of Floor the Love tgt =( )

this major SUX!

2009-05-28T14:31:00.002+08:00

ok.. i really would love to post new photos on my blog... BUT... my STUPID CAMERA CABLE went missing... i'm still searching high & low for it so that i can connect me cam to the com and update photos... -.- right now, to update is KO Night photos.. ok, not the ACTUAL KO Night but the photos we took after... (with jezz dear, and bunnn... and some more)

man.. i really was so pissed when i couldnt find my cable... this totally and completely sucks!! URGH!

promise to update photos soon (now my only source of photo-taking and updating is my PHONE! which is only 2.0 megapixel.. ya ya i know, SOOO PATHETIC) trying my best k?

ciao!

it's ok =)

2009-05-24T01:58:00.002+08:00

yet another let-down to myself... haha...
it's like after last week, nothing's been better... =(

well..
it's ok...
it'll be better...
=) =) =)

stay positive cos everything's actually alright.

Fruitful Day

2009-05-20T00:02:00.002+08:00

first of all.. i wanna thank my DEAR partner first... i couldn't have done anything without u... and without u.. nothing will be the same...

thanks babe... cos u always know what to do... and i'm so glad to have joined all those competition with u... experiencing and exposing myself to alot of new stuff tgt with u =) from lime, ftl, to KO night now... =D im glad i've found u.. that's all i can say haha...

anyway.. today has been a fruitful day... i realized things i nv had before. and i've learnt more too.. about myself, and about others =) sometimes, honestly, i get intimidated by the word sessioning... cos it feels like someone is judging what u're doing... and u're being watched... but i feel that it's really not as stressing as it seems... and being judged is the least of what's going on... it's more of u just feel the music.. and discover new stuff and know what's ur weakness and all... =) i guess i just like the feeling of just a few of us... all with having the same mentality of improving and not competing... it just feels... 'liberating' wahhahahahaha... =D

anyway... i know my dear Jasmine and i will work hard and jiayou together for a better performance for ko night this sat =) cos we both know that... our standards last week... was really kinda, bad. =D but we KNOW we'll do better =D
I LOVE U BABE!

All's gonna get better...

2009-05-17T23:40:00.002+08:00

You can't expect everything to go your way.
If it is so, that's not life.

What is so tricky about life is that it won't ever go completely smooth.
But what's so interesting about it,
is how you can work your way around it to make things better.

Everyone's gone through pain, laughter, sorrow...
But we all slowly get over it.
Why?
'Cause all will get better...
It's just the way of life that finds it's way.
No reason, no judgement, no way to fight it.

All's gonna get better
It will &
It has to...

just demoralized

2009-05-14T23:19:00.002+08:00

feeling down
feeling lost
simply...
demoralized

wish there was a faster way i could get myself back on my feet.
i know what's wrong with my mentality
but i just can't seem to switch over. that sucks. BIG TIME

hope by sat.. all will be ok... =)
i'll try my best and put in my effort
depend on myself more also...
jiayou

tired...for NO reason!

2009-05-13T00:44:00.002+08:00

lately... i've been getting physically tired easily... have no idea why.. i got so much free time in my timetable... and i dun wake up THAT early (not as early as others at least) and im super slack in almost EVERYTHING i do!

gosh... but lately.. things have been going good =) im happier now... and i know now... =) so im looking forward to better days spent... getting stronger and working things out to make things better! =D

now im just hoping that all in all.. everything will work out fine... with KO Night going on and all... i have no idea how well Groovy Aggression are going to do... but i definitely hope for the best for EVERYONE... =D jiayou...

bev is tired...

K.O. Night Photos =D

2009-05-07T00:17:00.005+08:00

=) =) =)

love my partner =D

[ok.. so 'aggression' is spelt wrong here... but WHO CARES!? we're in Top 8 yo!]

JIAYOUS!!!

ko night here we come!

these are the girls u have to look out for in KO NIGHT Quarters! =D yeah!

TINYPINKMONSTERS meet GROOVYAGGRESSION

bev meets PARTY CROOKS

cz and GROOVY AGGRESSION with YOKOI pose... lol...

(he made us pose this... REALLY!)

mike vs bev

GROOVY AGGRESSION & mianbao

lifetime babes

i'm with the breads of many kind.. haha
GROOVY AGGRESSION and bun!!

bun and me

GROOVY AGGRESSION vs ANDEE

my dearie

Good Job FB!!!

2009-05-03T18:02:00.005+08:00

GOOD JOB EVERYONE WHO PARTICIPATED IN THIS YEAR'S K.O. NIGHT 09!!! and.. of cos... great job and pats on the back for GROOVY AGGRESSION... =D yeah!!! jasmine dear and i made it to the Top 8 for Quarter Finals!!! woo-hoo~~~

have no words to describe my lovely couple over here... =D

[btw, our polaroid is STILL in my wallet.. and it always will be... =D]

presenting to you...

(some would say: just in it's order haha)

Groovy Aggression! =D

loving her to bits!!! =D

thanks babe... cos of u, WE'RE able to make it thru! =D heh heh

anyway... we will work even harder for the battles to come.. =D first we'll be up against the ANDYS!!!! haha.. Andy & Andee... whooo~~~ let's all jiayousss together!!! =D

i'll probably post more photos when i get them... =D

finally.. i wanna end off with saying... even this is to remind myself... that it's NOT about the Achievement... but the Attitude that makes you the winner u already are! =D

Club Crawl 09-cum-Time Passes SO FREAKIN' FAST

2009-04-26T21:42:00.006+08:00

pics taken by OTHERS of Club Crawl 2009!!! =)

man! feels like my senior year club crawl just ended not long ago.. and now, i'm already going to be a GRANDSENIOR! omg... why??? everything's like suddenly going so fast... oh well... nothings the same... just like always.. haha... =D everything just keeps changing... between friends, between loved ones... between others...?

oh well... a new sem's going to be starting tmr... my THIRD year already... it may seem fast, but to me, it's like kinda slow! maybe it's cos i hv LOADS of friends who go to JC and they've already graduated by now.. waiting to go to the U... man! well.. im not really upset im a step behind cos i KNEW this before i selected to go into poly... and im aware that im lagging behind others.. but im ok! i mean... i'll move along with my classmates and fb mates =) yea!

anyway.. hope tmr will be a GREAT first day of sch.. =S haha... peace!!!!

Needs A Lot of Cheering Up

2009-04-22T01:47:00.003+08:00

thanks dear baby... when i see u when i get home... it brightens my day sometimes... there's no reason not to just smile at u... and feel more cheerful with u around... =) thanks!!! =)

-feeling like i'm dropping into a bottomless pit-

just a blur

2009-04-20T01:12:00.002+08:00

everything starting to seem like... unclear...
i know what i want... i want something...
but i can see that i can't get what i want.

life's never fair...
we may love it at times... yet hate it at others...
right now, i just really hope to seek for a solution.
where i can continue to live my life as the best i can.

i hate it when inevitable plans have to be made...
restricting everything u wanna do in life...
it's those realistic measurements that really put u down...
and that sucks!

actually, if i wanted to, my life can sound like a rather sad piece of sh*t.
but i refuse to.. i dun want to see it that way.
i may think about it now and then, but doesn't mean it shall devour me.
but i KNOW it (my life) can seem really miserable if i really were just to say the lack of attachment in it.
it's not a 1 or 2 days thing anymore...
it's something that i've been brought up in,
and something i've to live with...
for the rest
of my life.

guess... right now, til whatever future i have,
i've to make it work
i've to make it, the best i can
no regrets, no looking back.

Max Party VI

2009-04-17T02:41:00.003+08:00

here are some shots at Max Party 6: FB Girls HipHop performance.. haha... i didnt even KNEW they took pics til i saw some of the other girls' blogs!!! i mean... it's like since was there someone using a cam to take pics of us dancing man?!?! haha... but some look so spastic... some... turned out not bad... heh heh =D enjoy!

forgetting...

2009-04-15T00:59:00.002+08:00

people, forget. that's the way human nature goes. we forget things, whether we like it or not. some, we forget for the better. but some, we forget what we don't want to or not supposed to...

u can say it's a gift. or that it's a curse... but if we don't forget, we can never be reminded of the things that we once forgot. and neither will we realize how important these things are when we are reminded so.

so what's about forgetting?
we forget stuff, we forget memories, and we forget morals.
ya sure it sucks... and we might even forget to be happy because of the other things we forget that affects us.

but... all in all... it's just a human nature..we can't fight it... we can't neglect it.. it's part of us... =) but embrace it we shall and overcome (not solve cos it's not a problem) we will! =)